I’ve struggled with how to word this and whether I should even post it publicly. Discussing personal mental health and writing about former work experiences in anything but glowing terms are both very taboo. However, the only thing I’ve ever regretted was not speaking up more.

2020 was a dumpster fire of a year. I even bought all my friends t-shirts to commemorate it.

Not being able to work from home and feel safe was a significant contributor to my mental health issues. I did not feel secure, but at the time, I couldn’t risk my job by voicing my concerns more strongly. This contributed to a dark period for me during 2020 and 2021, even though I did not personally lose anyone close to COVID-19. It felt wrong not to take every possible precaution, especially when so many had lost their lives.

One bright spot in 2020 was my ex-boyfriend getting a heart transplant. He’s still alive and dating a wonderful lady. On a personal note, in July 2021, I secured a new job that pays significantly more and allows me to do what I love (ecommerce)… so I guess it all worked out.

I feel bad for pausing St. Louis COVID Memorial in May 2021 without any notice, but personal circumstances can sometimes take precedence. This project was very close to my heart, and stepping away was not an easy decision. The mental toll of constantly reading obituaries and memorializing the lives lost to COVID-19 in St. Louis was overwhelming.

As we step into 2022, I want to wish everyone a better year ahead. I hope this year brings more peace, happiness, and safety than the last, and is infinitely better than 2020 (it doesn’t need to try too hard to be better than 2020).

Thank you to everyone who supported the St. Louis COVID Memorial and understood my need to take a step back for my mental health. Your understanding and encouragement mean the world to me.

Happy 2022, everyone!